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February 19th, 2009

11:05 pm - Conducting update I got an audition at Shenandoah Conservatory in Winchester, Virginia, for April 7th. That seems like a long way off from now. I'm hoping I'll hear from USC about the teaching program within the next month. My recital's a week from today. YIKES! Current Location: home Current Mood: stressed

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January 11th, 2009

10:52 pm - The beginning of the end, thank GOODNESS! I wish feelings were less complicated. Current Location: Cedar Falls Current Mood: sad Current Music: Bartok, The Miraculous Mandarin Suite

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August 14th, 2008

11:13 pm - This is so great Simon Carrington is amazing. Current Location: Brookside II Current Mood: exhausted

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12:20 am - A little tipsy, but who's counting? Right now I am happier than I have been in awhile, and it's all because of this afternoon and evening. I love the choral workshop here...and I'm excited to see my Iowa friends in just over a week! Current Location: Brookside II Current Mood: drunk

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August 10th, 2008

12:22 am - A Tokyo sendoff Goodbyes are never easy, nor is walking in heels. I've met a lot of great people in these past 6 weeks, and have had some good times with them. I will miss many of them, and while I know we'll try to keep in touch, I will miss seeing them around Norfolk during this next week. Bittersweet. Current Location: Brookside II Current Mood: contemplative

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July 31st, 2008

06:50 pm - Job interview, hooray! I have a job interview tomorrow afternoon for an administrative assistant position with Midori and Friends. Wish me luck! Current Location: Brookside II Current Mood: excited

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July 30th, 2008

12:15 am - Need sleep...and chocolate Sometimes, I really just can't deal with men. Basta. Current Location: Brookside II Current Mood: sad

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July 11th, 2008

09:33 pm - A big city I need to move to a big city, a more metropolitan area. I don't know if it can wait until after graduation. And, if it does wait until after graduation, I'm not so sure I can be a conductor. What am I meant to be, and how will I know? I feel like I should be working towards something, but I don't know what. Current Location: Brookside II Current Mood: discontent

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July 9th, 2008

01:01 am - Aaaaah, MOM! My mom pointed out this evening that summer will be over before we know it and I'll have to go back to school. Yep. Return to Iowa is next month. I hate thinking about it. As much as I want to see my friends, I SO do not want to go back, and thinking about school always stresses me out and causes intense anxiety. Thank god my summer situation is good this year. Current Location: Brookside II Current Mood: tired

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June 22nd, 2008

11:48 pm - Summer reading list 2008 I am going to try to keep this updated. Sleeping with Schubert, by Bonnie Marson The Way the Crow Flies, by Ann-Marie MacDonald Nights in Rodanthe, by Nicholas Sparks The Small Rain, by Madeleine L'Engle Current Location: Brookside II Current Mood: tired

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11:44 pm - Much needed day off Today I slept in until the afternoon. Apparently I really needed the sleep. I only ate one meal, and that was greasy appetizers at Friendly's. I went for a run with Carol and later helped her bake Oreo truffles. We listened to classical music. I talked to clarinetgy and Sarah and Mr. Swan on the phone. I started working on Mendelssohn 3 (score of the week). It was a really relaxing day off. Tomorrow I will continue to contemplate my life. Current Location: Brookside II Current Mood: relaxed

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June 21st, 2008

11:54 pm - What exactly am I doing with myself? I need a full-time job for the fall. Or a fellowship. Or at least I should be entering some conducting competitions. I REALLY need to talk to Becky, but I don't want to bug her with my academic life while she's on the road. Maybe I should go to school for arts administration. Maybe I should just go into arts administration. Arrrrggggghhhh. I do not want to have any stress over the summer AT ALL. This summer is supposed to help clarify things for me but instead it's giving me lots of time to think, and I'm not sure if thinking is the solution. I am trapped in my own mind. Current Location: Brookside II Current Mood: sleepy

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12:53 am - WTF? Straight women need to stop hitting on me. It's flattering, but dude: if you don't actually want to have sex with women, it's not going to get you anywhere with me. Fin. Current Location: Brookside II Current Mood: tired

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June 17th, 2008

08:03 am - On my own Today I am working in the box office all by myself, and even though I've been here for two weeks I STILL don't have a user name for Tessitura (ticket program). Therefore, I'll be essentially winging it, and calling Ashley whenever I don't know how to do something, which might be often. I finished reading "The Way the Crow Flies" by Ann-Marie MacDonald last night. You should ALL read it. It's one of the best novels I've read in a long time. I think this week's Score of the Week is going to be Tchaik 5 (last week it was Soldier's Tale). And, once I put some more money in my bank account (ie: Yale PAYS me) there are several DVDs I wish to purchase. The school thing is still up in the air. I think if I do apply for AD/post-master's programs Denver, ASU, and possibly NCArts are looking like my best bets. Current Location: Brookside II Current Mood: tired

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June 9th, 2008

10:38 pm - Summer '08 goals If I write them down here, I can be held accountable, so here it goes: - finish watching all seasons of "Felicity" - read at least four books "for pleasure" (may include the two books for Symphonic Lit class on the history of the orchestra) - finish learning the Franck Sonata - practice violin audition repertoire - start working on new violin repertoire - come up with a workable list of grad schools (or at least ideas for post-graduation) - figure out conducting recital repertoire - stick to some sort of exercise regimen (so far it's jogging/walking with Carol) - familiarize myself with at least one orchestral score each week (ten total) All doable, right? Now I just need to keep myself motivated... Current Location: Brookside II Current Mood: determined

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June 7th, 2008

10:18 pm - New Milford ramblings I listened to the Milhaud again and as cool as it is, I'm not going to be able to do it for my master's recital at this school. I can already hear Becky telling me that it'll be way too hard. ::sigh:: Someday I will conduct that piece. My AD search is progressing. I'd really like to talk to Becky about it, but I don't want to bug her while she's on vacation. Thing is, I know that once she gets back at the end of August she'll be in moving/school mode, which will almost make it harder to talk to her. We'll figure it out. The most important things to me in an AD program are an orchestra that can actually a). play, b). make some music, and c). put on a fair number of concerts each year, and significant podium time for me. I've learned my lesson. It was 92 degrees here today, felt like 100, and my parents' air conditioning was broken. Hotter than sin. Hopefully I can sleep okay tonight, because I have a week of Norfolk ahead of me. My grandfather's memorial service and funeral is going to be a week from today. Jim is letting me skip the first two concerts at Norfolk to attend, which is very understanding of him. I'm looking forward to seeing my family again, but sad that it has to be under these circumstances. I'd like a companion in life. Current Location: home Current Mood: hot

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June 4th, 2008

08:05 am - Since when do I write early-morning LJ posts? I don't need to be awake this early...except that if I actually want a hot shower, I need to be the first one in the house to take a shower in the morning. Yesterday I was the third (and last) and I got freezing cold water. It didn't feel too good. And, since I'm definitely not a morning person and absolutely need the shower in order to function, I dragged my sorry ass out of bed early enough this morning to make sure I'd get that hot shower today. I keep reminding myself that I'd be up just as early if I was going to my church job. Thing is, if I'm going to make this a regular habit, I'm going to have to not stay up so late. Hannah's piece isn't going to work for my recital after all, so I'm back to looking for pieces with saxophone and harp. At this point I'm hoping I can just find two short pieces, one with sax and one with harp. It's not too hard to find orchestral works with one harp. It's much more difficult to find chamber orchestra works with saxophone that don't feature the saxophonist as some sort of concerto soloist. Ah, programming. I actually practiced my violin yesterday, which was sweet. It was the first time I'd touched it since my jury, so it had been a few weeks. I've decided I'm going to learn the rest of the Franck sonata this summer. I learned the 3rd and 4th movements this past semester, and I have a start on the 1st movement. The 2nd movement is the hardest, but it's totally playable. I think I might order some new pieces of music soon, maybe even today, to motivate myself a little more. I do want to get through some more rep this summer, even if it's not stuff I'm working on seriously. It's going to be a rainy day here in Norfolk - should be LOVELY for my hair. :-P Current Location: Brookside II Current Mood: tired

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June 3rd, 2008

12:11 am - Endings and beginnings I'm in/at Norfolk! So far, so good. It's beautiful here and people are nice. I have my own room, and my own bathroom (though I do still need to use the shower down the hall). I'm not really sure what to expect from tomorrow, but I'm looking forward to it. AND, I heard from Becky this evening, so I know she's alive out there in Arkansas. I just hope I get to actually talk to her soon. I miss her. And I miss Becca, even though I didn't know her well and hadn't seen her in years. What a lovely young woman. Rest in peace, Becca - may you now be one with the Earth. Current Location: Norfolk! Current Mood: anxious

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June 1st, 2008

04:55 pm - I hate packing I would SO much rather be reading, napping, or playing on the Internet, or sitting outside, than packing to go to Norfolk tomorrow. It's not that I'm not looking forward to Norfolk - I think this summer has the potential to be great - it's just that I hate packing. And cleaning. And reorganizing all the crap in my room. Grrrrr. Current Location: TV room at home Current Mood: lazy

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May 22nd, 2008

09:32 pm - Neverending tragedies I'm remembering Becca Payne. I still can't believe it: ( Rest in peace, Becca ) Current Location: home Current Mood: sad

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